*yEsTeRdAy, xMaS eVe*

such a beautiful morning & yet i had t0 rep0rt t0 sch f0r 2tut0rials early in the m0rning @ 9pm! the tut0rials went 0n sl0wly as i pray hard tt i can see dear dear asap!

after less0n ended.. i headed straight hm t0 pack my stuffs.. met up wif them n head d0wn t0 SeNtOsA~ after reachin there.. we head t0wards Sil0s0 beach and started 0ff wif playing v0lleyball.. actually i was jus standin there la~ din d0 anything at all~ but i enj0y watchin dear dear =PpP
sadly i realised tt the bracklet i b0ught f0r dear dear n myself.. was g0ne~ and every0ne st0pped playing jus t0 help me find (actually s0me was jus findin excuses t0 end the game)

the sky was darkening n we quicken 0ur pace t0 pitch tents @ palawan beach but was asked t0 m0ve up t0 camp laguna by s0me stupid 0fficers~ waste 0ur time.. nearly causing us t0 be late f0r the music f0untain.. but i can feel tt dear dear really put in eff0rt t0 rush 0n time f0r me.. i'm veri t0uched f0r tt =) as b4.. the music f0untain was awes0me n we walked by the STARY STARS park tt i l0ved al0t~ s0 beautiful~

after tt.. we came back.. and...... i din managed t0 keep my w0rds.. i l0st temper @ him again.. and things g0t rather bad.. i always whack him s0 hard.. i'm indeed veri bad.. which gf wld hurt the bf like tt? sigh.. when he started sayin tt he dun understand why.........(it's 0ver n i dun wan t0 remember it) i was s0 sad.. haha.. i actually cried again.. *s0 l0usy* but! in the end we still kiss n patch up =)

in 0rder t0 keep dear nt in a difficult p0siti0n.. i j0inned in their s0ccer.. haha.. quite fun~ tryin t0 st0p the ball fr g0ing in~ th0u it hurts al0t.. but it's 0kie as l0ng as there's fun in it =PpP
after tt we rested n started playing cards.. p0lice & theives.. bluff... g0sh~ this was the l0ngest game man~ then i g0t tired n retreat t0 bed.. zZzzZzzzZz time!

~tOdAy, xMaS & oUr 4tH aNnIvErSaRy~

wake up feeling deadbeat.. slack ard f0r awhile n had 0ur breakfast.. after tt they discussing t0 g0 d0wn n play wif the water.. but~ dear dear dun have extra underwear~ while... i dun have extra bra~~ l0lz~ ended up purchasing 0ne bikini t0p.. @ first dun wanna g0 d0wn 0ne.. the water was freezing~ in my sense~ but dear dear push me int0 the sea T_T
learnt h0w t0 paddle AbIt t0day with dear's c0aching.. s0 much fun t0day t00 =)

ended up g0ing h0me in tireness n sc0rching h0t sun burns~

he asked me wh0 i treat him as..
seri0usly.. if he wasnt any0ne impt 0r s0me0ne i need the m0st..
i wldnt have put in s0 much in this rela..
i really d0es.. really cherish his l0ve..
and i.. really ackn0wledge him..
as the 0ne..

-= so wu liaoz de =-

t0day was s0 b0ring~~ **yAwNzZz**
alth0u had less0n @ 1pm but reach nP @ 10am.. jus t0 get the stupid RFA's PBL qns d0ne.. but quite happy c0s my grp fare quite well during the questi0ning 0f the tut0r.. unlike the 0ther 2grp which jammed halfway (0ppS! shall n0t menti0n names =PpP)
thanks dear f0r lendin me his lappy.. but when i was d0ing the quiz halfway.. the page hang n i jus MERELY refresh it.. and it l0gged me 0ut 0f the quiz indicatin i had FINISH the quiz~ n0 ch0ice~ had t0 d0 it 0n the wksht itself.. shld i had knew it earlier.. i wldnt have tr0ubled la0 g0ng t0 lend me le.. but if i did s0.. i cant see la0 g0ng f0r few secs during 3pm le ~^_^~
meet up wif la0 g0ng later t0 return him the lappy.. and t00k s0me pics s0 tt he can change away my BIG head! zZzzzZZzzzZz..
n0w i'm relaxing infr0nt 0f lappy.. waiting f0r my dear sis t0 c00k me instant n00dle ( my dinner T_T) lalala~

TODAY! was my anti-squash day~
my dear was happily indulging in his squash n not replyin my msg @ all (expected 0ne).. i was spending my afternoon wif elyz @ 0rchard.. she t00k me t0 0ne ind0 n00dle sh0p l0cated near 0rchard plaza ( i think s0).. the n00dles was delici0us~
walk ard n sh0p ard f0r la0 g0ng's xmas present, al0ng e way.. there's s0 much temptati0n~ but my determinati0n t0 get la0 g0ng's present asap eventually st0p me fr wasting unnecessary m0ney~ **kekeke**
finally~ i f0und la0 g0ng's present @ HMV~ haha.. cann0t menti0n it here.. wait la0 g0ng will n0e.. hehehe.. it's damn frustrating t0 keep g0ing in the wallet sh0p t0 take a glance @ my fav purse f0r the past 1yr le.. the price is still s0 exp in my 0pini0n as my current purse was still useable.. t0t 0f destr0yin my purse t0 get a 0ld 0ne ( i n0e i n0e~ excuses!) but i cant d0 it.. c0s i dun believe in splurgin m0ney..

uH oH~ sInFuL sInFuL!
i havent been blogging for days ma~ so it's time to UPDATE!

tUeSdAy:
lesson ended early so i went off wif elyz to have lunch togetther n slack ard for abit before going home =) nothing special happen today as dear deserted me n went for his darling squash~

wEdNeSdAy:
had lesson till 5pm today.. the RFA module really makes me sick man.. but touchingly.. got dear dear wait for me to go off together =PpP
hApPLy In LovE!!!

tHuRsDaY:
dear actually had backache today.. seeing him in such pain.. jus made me so worried and heartache for him.. BUT! this idiot of mine.. jus went to play squash during his break.. despite me! constantly remind him to REST REST REST! this time my blood really boils.. my first instinct was to jus leave him behind burying him in squash racket n nv EVER care abt him again.. really cant accept tt he always take my words as nothing.. but in the end? i still relented.. why? cos he's jus too cute.. jus cant stand being angry wif him for too long.. but still will nag nag abit.. if not! he'll take it for granted AGAIN!

in the end we went to squash court as he settled some buz.. seriously.. if he really holds one racket and start playing.. i swear i'll throw the ring at him when he's playing half-way n walk away~ went for dinner together after getting my hp~ s0 happy! lalala~ and catch Blade Trinity~ veri touched that dear always find time to acc me.. and not forgettin the fact tt he's alrdy so tired.. (xie xie lao gong)

dunn0 why all gals are s0 selfish.. always wan their bfs all t0 themselves..

fRiDaY:
bOO~~
super duper boring day~ absolutely feel like dying.. cos woke up early t0 rush f0r less0n.. alth0u i've alrdy missed 0ne tut0rial.. 0PPs! tt nitez slpz t00 late lia0~ then the tutor actually REMEMBER WRONGLY! zZzzzzZzz!!!!!!
lucky g0t dear t0 acc me h0me =) s0 blissfully in l0ve~

sAtUrDaY:
went t0 nP early in the m0rning t0 d0 pr0ject.. but sadly.. i ended up slping like a pig during the discussi0n.. really dui bu qi the rest -_-^ after tt c0s dear havent finish his s0ccer s0 i went h0me n slack first.. grab my stuffs n get rdy waitin f0r him t0 call.. s0 pai sei when he enter my r00m.. c0s it's was jus SOOOOO messy~

anyway we meet up n went t0 eat MOS burger~ cant believe dear actually give in t0 me.. ke lian ta le~ after tt we met up wen l0ng n his gf.. haha.. since n0n 0f us is really familiar wif the r0ute t0 bugis.. we ended up j0kin n kiddin ard.. @ nitez even w0rse.. we even ended up in esplanade.. really feel s0 happy t0 be @ the r00f terrace wif dear again~ finally reach sG checkpt ard 9pluS??

haha tt nitez was quite fun.. we went f0r dinner.. then wen l0ng actually t00k us t0 "dr00l" @ bAbEs man~ mus admit that their figures are t00 g00d t0 be true.. but their b0dy cum they face add t0gether really l00ks ex0tic man.. then we went t0 watch OceanTwelve.. which was treated by wen l0ng's aunty (nice lady huh) aNd g0sh~ this is the veri first time tt i actually fall aslpz watchin m0vie in cinema~ it's all dued t0 dear's influence.. wh0 ask him t0 d0ze 0ff first.. went back t0 his h0use quite late.. had s0me durians.. and bath quickly in the h0t water tt dear b0il f0r me (his h0use t00 p00r ma -_^)

sUnDaY:
w0ke up late ard 1pm.. slack ard f0r awhile n had lunch wif them.. sh0p ard.. walk ard.. then finally after a l0ng struggle 0f decisi0n.. i finally decided t0 g0 back sG myself.. fr 7pm t0 10:30.. i've c0nsidered myself quite fit~ haha alth0u there's times when my st0mach really cld n0t take it anym0re n i squat d0wn unsightfully T_T

dOeS iT mAtTeRs?
t0day.. i wr0te dear s0mething fr0m a p0stcard tt i've c0llected fr np.. it's my first time d0ing such thing.. theref0re i was hesitating while i was d0ing it.. c0s i n0e he w0nt wan it 0ne.. c0s it's real stupid..

but elyz enc0uraged me t0 jus give him.. and when i finally did.. the l00k fr0m his expressi0n c0nfirm my t0ts.. my heart t0ld me he wasnt happy t0 see the card at all.. shldnt have listen t0 elyz man! n0w i bec0me idi0t already~

haha.. seri0usly.. 0f c0s veri disapp0inted.. suddenly feel veri 0ut 0f place.. first time d0ing such stupid stuff n feel like i've g0t rejected.. in future skin me alive~ and i 0s0 w0nt d0 such stuffs again~ but i din thr0w the card away c0s i wanna burn it~.. c0s ashes t0 ashes.. dust t0 dust.. th0u it's like crumpled shit already but nvm la.. it's still my first artw0rk..

super vexed n0w.. why? c0s $$$ n0t en0ugh~ aiyah~ n0 use fretting abt it n0w.. dun feel like bl0gging anym0re man..

jus back fr0m the chalet 0rganised by yp.. everything went well.. alth0u wc they all were grumbling n0nst0p that they wanna g0 h0me yesterday aftern00n as they jus wan t0 slp in their 0wn bEd~ but we still managed t0 keep them staying.. sigh.. tr0ubles0me man..

we jus hang ard in the chalet in the aftern00n n set up 0ur bbq stuffs ard evening.. there's al0t 0f pple there.. jus tt dearie is n0t there =(.. jus 0ne table away fr us.. s0me0ne is celebrating their bdae wif t0ns 0f apple strudels as bdae cakes.. haha.. i suddenly had the urge t0 be cheeky n i started leading every0ne t0 sing bdae s0ng t0gether wif them.. s0 funny~

me and cf invented t0ns 0f 0ni0n stuff.. wif h0td0gs.. chilli.. sambal chilli.. s0t0ngs.. prawns.. fish.. chicken meat.. chicken wings.. hahaha~ even p0tat0! yummy yummy man! bbq ended ard 11plus n we went back n t00k t0ns 0f pics~ haha.. mus sh0w dear dear s0me 0ther day le.. slack ard n fight f0r the use 0f t0ilet t0 bath.. we draw l0ts t0 decide.. at 1st they tried t0 make me last.. but lucky me g0t t0 use the t0ilet the veri FIRST OnE!! wahahahahA!

nitez passed by wif games played.. slept ard @ 6am n w0ke up ard 9plus.. getting rdy t0 g0 h0me.. breakfast @ mac was quite delici0us.. mayb dued t0 l0ng time nv eat le.. t00k 168 h0me by bed0k.. and the j0urney seems f0rever man! zZzzzZzzzz...

reach h0me n slack f0r awhile.. my mum actually say i l00k damn pale! th0u i admit i feel veri sick n giddy.. she say i'm getting uglier le *s0bz* had a chat wif tc jus n0w.. mayb it's dued t0 my tireness.. i g0t irritated easily.. after wat he said t0 me.. i've been feeling damn l0w till n0w.. haiz.. dunn0 h0w t0 say t00..

ThUrSdAy~ was such a beautiful day~

went f0r 0ne stupid lecture and yet i cant remember the m0dule name -.- trim my hair AGAIN @ a hair sal0n near beauty w0rld.. lunch was taken at my fav place, ThE pRaTa sHoP! r0ng n i have s0 much t0 catch up wif.. after lunch.. i decided t0 walk back t0 np's backgate c0s i feel s0 fattening after w0lfing d0wn all th0se 0ily stuffs.. we even chat abt 0ur future lifes.. bec0me neighb0urs.. have kids t0gether.. we can tut0r each 0ther's kids different subjects.. and learn c00king n play sp0rts t0gether during aftern00n time.. 0ur hubbies bc0me best g0lf partners n etc.. haha.. silly wishes~

meet up wif dear after lecture ended at 5pm.. s0 excited that it'll be 0ur first nitez 0ut t0gether after the h0lidays.. after resting f0r awhile @ his place.. we finally set 0ff t0 esplanade.. we kept sc0tting f0r a nice place t0 dine in.. but dued t0 my c0nstant reluctance n p0ndering.. m0st places started cl0sing up man.. and we settled f0r WILDFIRE~ haha.. first time experience 0f n0t having en0ugh m0ney t0 pay~ s0 much fun~ it's s0 cute..

finally i t00k him up t0 the r00f terrace.. g0sh~ the sky is full 0f stars~ i mean.. it's n0t like i've nv seen stars bf0re.. but since i've m0ved t0 sp0re.. i have seld0m seen a sky full 0f stars.. and yesterday's sky was jus s0 beautiful n bright~ h0w i wish the time will jus st0p there f0rever.. i'm hallucinating man! i've nv br0ught any0ne up there b4.. and i dunn0 why i have this str0ng tendency t0 sh0w him the place i fancy the m0st.. i have n0 anwser t00..

life is w0nderful n0w.. and i nv fails t0 remind myself tt i'm s0 blessed t0 have such a him by my side =) mayb tt's why i br0ught him there.. t0 share my feelings.. th0ughts.. and.. perharps.. my happiness..

**** eVenT oF tHe dAy ****
after getting back t0 tew yew.. his sis was @ h0me.. and i cant p0ssibly g0 up.. theref0re i spend my time waiting d0wnstairs f0r his sis t0 fall aslp then i'll g0 h0me.. but his sis is full 0f energy.. haha.. she slept @ ard 4.. and i spend my time g0ing t0 7eleven.. playing games in hp.. the truth is.. it's actually damn c0ld @ nitez.. kekeke.. but i actually enj0y the pr0cess~ c0s as l0ng as i can be wif dear.. n0thing matters le.. c0s i n0e we are spending less n less time t0gether.. as time g0es by.. it's seems like a threat t0 0ur rela.. but.. it's jus an0ther test..

here i am bl0ggin away while my lappy is bl0wing 0ff the s0ng rum0rs by lindsay l0han..

t0day wanted t0 g0 f0r the blaw lecture.. but jus t00 c0mfy sitting at h0me le.. theref0re i declare a rest day fr lecture myself.. went t0 l00k f0r dear n waited f0r him t0 finish his less0n.. 0n the way t0 np.. g0d still welcum me wif a big d0wnp00r man!

cant wait f0r tml t0 c0me.. finally after s0 l0ng 0f waiting.. me n dear g0nna spend s0me quality time t0gether wif0ut any hindance.. nt need t0 wry abt the timing 0f g0ing h0me.. 0r rushing h0me.. lalalala~ it jus feel s0 different..

t0tally m00dless t0 d0 anything n0w..

my preci0us hair was cutted by an aunty wh0 used the wr0ng sciss0rs.. my mind is still spinning wildy hearing n0thing but 0nly her repeating ap0l0gies.. but will that bring my hair back? f0r 1 n a half yr le.. i've nv ever let any0ne cut my hair.. even when i ask the hairdresser t0 trim.. i'll c0nstantly remind them n0t t0 trim t00 much.. and yet n0w.. the aunty jus..

my tears jus cldnt st0p r0lling.. even as i try t0 keep my mind pre0ccuiped wif s0mething else.. my heart cant st0p aching.. and i havent even l00k myself in the mirr0r yet.. it's jus damn ugly.. UGLY UGLY UGLY! i hate it! i hate my hair! i hate myself!

why mus i l0se s0mething dear t0 me everytime when i try my veri best t0 keep them.. firstly it's my tw0 hp.. then it's my nike watch.. n0w even my hair.. cant i even try t0 have l0ng hair f0r 0nce? why is it everytime i cant have this wish fulfilled.. why mus it always be this way.. i'm having such a bad 0men that this is 0nly the start.. i'll start l0sing m0re n m0re fr n0w.. haiz..

n0w i miss my dear badly n yearn f0r his huggles.. yet he's s0 far away fr me.. and s0 distant away fr my heart.. guess he shld be having fun n0w ba.. i think.. mayb he's busy hugging another lady now.. **s0bz**

nvm la~ i can handle it 0n my 0wn.. live my 0wn life..

t0day was the veri 1st day 0f my sch day.. and it was GOD DAMN BORING~~

actually the apprec art wasn't as bad as i thought.. since y0ung.. i ad0res th0se fascinating ancient paintings.. man.. it jus rounds me back to ancient time n wat actually happens behind the painting (sounds chim?) haha.. jus tt i dun wan pple t0 laugh 0ut l0ud tt DENISE HAN! actually n0es h0w t0 apprec art? the idea 0f visiting singap0re's museum excited me! i loved hist0ry since i was taught by mdm l0usi since sec3.. it's jus awes0me man~

after tt i met up wif dear to go beauty w0rld plaza t0 pay his hp bills.. 0nly t0 realise tt there's n0 DBS bank there (tr0ubles0me rite~) then we went t0 bukit panjang t0 try 0ur luck n yet t0 0ur avail.. lastly we head back t0 w00die n get the bills paid.. on our way back to np.. i actually rub my eyes till my right side contact len fall 0ut! h0w lame can i be?

anyway.. my sweet darling acc me t0 get a new pair 0f c0ntact lens b4 he left f0r his last less0n 0f the day.. and i spend my time in the library readin up sidney sheldon's novels waitin for him =)

haiz i can sensed tt he's real tired n yet acc0mpanying me after his less0n ends.. alway tryin hard t0 acc me as much as p0ssible.. i shld really give him al0t 0f space fr n0w le.. fr now onwards.. i'll try to meet him lesser.. let him had m0re free time like he used t0 have bf0re he's t0gether wif me.. if n0t.. i really hates t0 see him s0 tired..

jus n0w he called n say his lappy's hard disk crash le.. all my stuffs inside g0ne le.. but i wasnt c0ncerned abt my stuff being g0ne at all.. i 0nly care abt his stuff being g0ne.. i n0e tt kind 0f feelings is unbearable.. h0w i h0pe i cld d0 s0mething t0 cheer him up..
**sIgH**

today is the LAST day of my holiday.. after which is a brand new sch term~ another 6mths of SUFFERINGS! god damn man!

this morning had another tiff wif dear.. i realised i'm veri nasty towards him since yesterday.. he's been so understanding n yet i'm being so unreasonable.. even thou we kissed n patch up.. i still feel guilty towards the way i've treated him.. sigh.. not a gd gf..

but in the end we still meet and had our lunch together.. after which he suggested playing few rds of pool.. nonetheless.. he THRASH me.. haha.. it's expected.. but he's quite sweet too.. always giving me the chance to move the ball =PpP.. watched Without A Paddle wif dear this afternoon.. the movie was damn hilarious~ wif non stop of funni actions n the storyline is rather cute =) definitely had a fine time laughing man!

actually i dun really care wat we do together.. as long as he's by my side.. nothing else really matters.. i think all gals thinks the same way too.. =) haha simply jus love his presense ard me.. jus feel so secure n jus feel like telling him that i love him every sec every min!

today i wake up veri early hoping to reach sg checkpt earlier BUT! in the end still jam @ jb's checkpt! really dunno wat those ma lai zhu's doing~ DAMN sLoW! and there's no chinese taxi driver at all man! are they all dead? and this malay taxi driver was as sotong as me.. take me far far away n make a big rd~ zZzZzZzzz~

fInALLy~ reach dear's h0use at 1plus.. we slack ard n watch the vcd (4get the title le) by Andy Lau n Sammi Cheng. HATE that sh0w c0s g0t unhappy ending! and i'll broad over it non-st0p for the next few days over the sad ending man =( it still has it's meaningful part as it reminds us not to take pple ard us for granted.. and to cherish them while we can.. haha.. tt's wat i've been always doing since the day i'm wif dear!

the worst part is @ nitez where i had dinner wif his family members.. haha.. his mum is so cute~ always askin me to eat n replace the chicken non-st0p (eat till abit scared =P)AND dear is so bad! took away my ring n refuse to return me (so cute!) after dinner his whole family members return home one by one.. i sit there panicking nonstop.. phew~ lucky his family members are so friendly n funnI too~ haha ard 10:30, i return to sg wif his sis n her husband.. they are rather a cute couple..

**** eVeNt oF ThE dAy ****

this afternoon i saw her name appear in his hp.. at 1st i roughly noe wat's inside le.. then he still panick all the way n refused to let me had his hp.. was he sheltering her? well.. it did succeed in makin me real pissed off.. but after he told me wat he've told her.. i feel extremely happy althou i din show it out.. i've always tot tt i cant hold a candle in his heart but now i'm more confident le ba.. haha.. anyway even if i'm over confident.. i've no longer care abt it.. cos wat matters most is tt he's still more impt than all my silly thoughts =)

aH hem~ feel weird bloggin away for the first time..

since there's nothing BETTER to do~ i shall do a brief intro of my current life~

proud owner of 8babies hamster, 5white babies wif red FiERY eyes~ and not fogetting my precious mumu who's now 4mth+ old living together wif his wife, lao po~

currently happily n blissfully in love =)
have a w0nderful n d0ting hubby who's forever so caring towards me
and he's a drop dead gorgeous hunk~ and did i mention i love the way when he drive? simply mesmerizing man~

wo yi jian dao bao le!

well~ today is such a boring day~ wifout the company of my dear~ sobz~ feel so sian! but there's no choice at all cos he's real busy wif his stuff.. therefore i dun blame him at all..

in fact~ i'm quite touched when he wrote me the veri FIRST testi yesterday~ althou it's dued to my constant nagging which urged him to write.. (i feel quite bad abt it cos he din write it willingly) but at last~ he did write something.. hahaha..

and we had a small tiff this afternoon~ over some stuffs.. he kept sayin i'm not shy type of person~ sometimes say for fun jiu suan le~ but he's like assuming i'm FOREVER not shy~ i do have shy times but HE JUS DUN THINK SO! haiz of cos xin li hen bu hao shou.. if he sees this part.. he'll surely puke or say me buay pai sei one! well.. guess he'll forever think tt way.. so be it~

but anyway it's happy ending bfore evening =) pple in love are always so happy n looking their best~

now i'm missing him dearly~

shall update more tml when i'm back fr malaysia~

adious for now!